I don’t use Spotify due to these reasons. So here’s a list the songs dear to my heart, both Dutch and English.

my songs of comfort

cat list.txt | youtube-dl -f best

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFptt7Cargc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HEwtPwkeXjw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cYQTL-ws6p4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-oERBst8L0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBaaQ9tNdrc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lAqjksxc4iA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vUzVCw8BEXA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eaGpdhienMk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UXzx–YefD8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XP5oHL3zBDg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dKANEy_-nM0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJwt2dxx9yg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5NnvZ7Yb5OE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Imf9vkeEono

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U_cZyavt06U

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t99KH0TR-J4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0Utkr8LSdc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYlNjQ5TTF4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1N3f9ALU58U

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yfrqK_uVDok

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLdvpFIPReA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lWJXDG2i0A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7lweNCCwS0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jMlFXouPk8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PBaaQ9tNdrc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CDY2K_f_5-s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7oQ93GZSxk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x3km9sdwyH8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngVHtE-iZSQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EtTDYMnKeJQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lWJXDG2i0A

favorite covers

one of my favorite covers - shiny toy guns plays depeche mode

one of my favorite scenes - gene kelly & cyd charisse in singin’ in the rain

one of my favorite songs - want to get away, just for one day https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VnqXg6Oniug

depeche mode covering bowie https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6yzrZfgQvI https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXgkuM2NhYI

bowie covering nina simone - let me fly away with you https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7cSAKlu0OlU

nina simone covering leonard cohen - suzanne https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qgk_FJeo6aM

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/62576/

leonard cohen covers the bee gees - to love somebody https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-EujNOTSMw4

Sinead O’Conner, tears from the moon

Jackie; one of my favorite songs from the Irish Sinead O’Connor. She was around 20 when she sang it for her debut hit album The Lion and the Cobra 1987. It’s the opening track, short and setting the stage, 2 minutes and 28 seconds. It’s about sadness, the searching and longing. Hope, dreams, expectations, stuborness and disappointment.

“I reach for you, I reach in vain…”

The Other; R, R, F, K. Sometimes beyond death, present, often not reachable in this life, sometimes a little, sometimes there is the fleeting or imagined connection, through or beyond the senses. Dreams and ideals, “washing the sand, with my ghostly tears”

Jackie left on a cold, dark night Telling me he’d be home Sailed the seas for a hundred years Leaving me all alone And I’ve been dead for twenty years I’ve been washing the sand With my ghostly tears Searching the shores for my jackie-oh I remember the day the young man came He said, “your jackie’s gone We got lost in the rain” And I ran to the beach And laid me down “You’re all wrong”, I said And they stared at the sand “That man knows that sea Like the back of his hand He’ll be back some time Laughing at you” And I’ve been waiting all this time For my man to come Take his hand in mine And lead me away To unseen shores I’ve been washing the sand With my salty tears Searching the shore For these long years And I’ll walk the seas forever more Till I find my jackie oh

live in london 1988

live in amsterdam 2013

live in hongarije 2015

Relevant commentary

“Jackie” (alternatively ‘Jacky’) is the affectionate diminutive of James, a common Christian forename used in both Catholic and Protestant Ireland and of course in many other Christian countries; James being one of the apostles.

Sinead often references Irish literature (c.f. “Troy”), in this case perhaps it is J.M. Synge’s one-act play “Riders to the sea”, in which grief-stricken Maurya has lost her husband and all five sons to the sea. Sinead’s story may be a personal one as so much of her work is part autobiographical. It is not uncommon in island nations to lose loved ones in drowning.

Grief, like love (the two are inextricably linked, grief being the reaction to the loss of a loved one; the inability to express and feel the reciprocity of love in the finality of death) ‘is forever’ - we cannot contemplate it ending and become unaware how long we have dwelt within it. A hundred years is irrelevant in eternity; likewise the twenty five years of no longer having feelings capable of responding to happiness or joy in others. The singer is in denial: “You’re all wrong, I said…”, which is the acknowledged first stage of grief, allowing us a view of the immediacy of that recollection when she was first told of Jackie’s death. We hear her anger (second stage) in that denial, upbraiding the newsbringers for telling her and she runs to the sandy beach to be as near Jackie as physically possible, bargaining (third stage) with tears -and most likely prayers- for Jackie’s deliverance, safe and able to laugh at the tale-tellers.

It is unclear whether she enters the fourth stage (depression), although the compulsive repetition of behaviour, waiting and crying and searching the shore, but she has clearly not reached the final stage of acceptance and thus it is this endurance of mental pain that gives the song its tragic hook.

I love the reletless, rising throb of that rhythm guitar; the gain distortion and rising crescendo…. Wow! Could this have been done any other way? Possibly, but not as powerfully."

From: Drunkenpoet on Songmeanings. May 26, 2016

  • Riders to the Sea

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Riders_to_the_Sea

https://www.jstor.org/stable/44504752?seq=1

https://www.grin.com/document/307444

  • Over Sinead

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sin%C3%A9ad_O%27Connor

https://diffuser.fm/sinead-oconnor-lion-and-the-cobra/

https://thequietus.com/…/12455-sinead-o-connor-interview

  • Andere favorieten en songs met andere artiesten:

Take My Hand (In Tua Nua with Sinead O’Connor) 1984(!) voor haar debuutalbum)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WBTEEZSV6sA

Heroine (1986 - voor haar debuutalbum)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vpwsK2mLFeI

https://www.discogs.com/The-Edge-With…/release/215234

Feel so different

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PU5PwOHJfoA

Drink before the war

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_p5V00sUBhI

You made me the thief of your heart (soundtrack In the name of the Father)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zON0hoRwqSw

Jerusalem

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLBhlRo4-rI

Song to the Siren (cover). This Mortal Coil zong het nummer nog beter in Lost Highway

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=88wL8oRf45U

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HFWKJ2FUiAQ

Take me to church

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jMzY_KQIKjU

Prayer for England

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=buj0nZWTjZg

A new born child

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ngVHtE-iZSQ

Three babies (over miskramen, kindjes voor wie je niet kan zorgen en wellicht abortus)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXno2cMrFpo

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/3530822107858613749/

All kinds of everything

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OlAA1AYQaLM

Help me through the night

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5i_vF7DRA0

No man’s woman

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qD_Z3td4nRU

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/87177/

Troy en Troy - Push remix

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6BKQ6wPY6o

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Ad0qVhfdfA

I had a baby

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-cAHOX6Cniw

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/3530822107859452761/

https://www.theguardian.com/…/01/sinead-oconnor-new-album

Lullaby for Cain

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GcW3o5Q8ako

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/34094/

My special child

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mk0EzHUmthE

It’s all good https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLHlfozGrZE

Guide me God (I’ll always know you’re there. Guide me God and I will find you) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GbUCWS8WLF0

Release (over Jezus en de Verrijzenis, Hemelvaart en Pinksteren)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LhIkAKJzs8

Kingdom of Rain (over liefde tussen een man en vrouw)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UIklk1gHbuQ

Special cases (check yourself for your own shit in relationships with men)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OQ31yNp6Nao

It’s only life

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aD1uk_cx6tI

https://www.musixmatch.com/…/Elaine…/It-s-Only-Life

1000 mirrors

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUVErnrbVEc

Harbour (my heart is full, my heart is wide)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-yf4s-ONxGI

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/124833/

Tears from the Moon

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFALnpU3zlo

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/3530822107858483119/

Beach house

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1gnxTAwHHTE&t=1654s

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/3530822107859510444/

https://youtu.be/Qj4xJYEOhM4

Maynard James Keehan

Sober here’s a shadow just behind me Shrouding every step I take Making every promise empty Pointing every finger at me Waiting like a stalking butler Who upon the finger rests Murdered now the past it cost me Just because the son has come Jesus, won’t you fucking whistle Something but the past and done? Jesus, won’t you fucking whistle Something but the past and done? Why can’t we not be sober? Just want to start this over And why can’t we drink forever? I just want to start this over I am just a worthless liar I am just an imbecile I will only complicate you Trust in me and fall as well I will find a center in you I will chew it up and leave I will work to elevate you Just enough to bring you down Mother Mary, won’t you whisper? Something but what’s past and done Mother Mary, won’t you whisper? Something but the past and done Why can’t we not be sober? I just want to start this over And why can’t we sleep forever? I just want to start this over Why? I am just a worthless liar I am just an imbecile I will only complicate you Trust in me and fall as well I will find a center in you

I will chew it up and leave

Trust me

Trust me

Trust me

Trust me

Trust me

Why can’t we not be sober?

I just want to start things over

And why can’t we sleep forever?

I just want to start this over

Why?

I want what I want

I want what I want

I want what I want

I want what I want

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/35159/

reaction video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uePIntiofo

reaction video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T3L42kKemrg

reaction video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o4BsoYFEAA8

reaction video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWXwqyoxz1k

reaction video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBLRoFOFe5E

about maynard james keenan

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maynard_James_Keenan…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QM34WZUjJgA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IDRzYsLQM2U

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-AqQV1wp2Y

Steven Wilson

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGXWir2y1hQ

Low

congregation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EtTDYMnKeJQ

holy ghost https://youtu.be/SASH2LyTSBQ

below and above https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OYNjlIa3ezM

bright https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WnTZz0YWF38

closer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y7yoW26DQB8

always up https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-QXr41WFgA&t=632s

Mazzy Star

into dust https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0Utkr8LSdc

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/16200/

Metalligeek

He put lyrics on one of my favorite instrumental Metallica songs (Orion, 1986) a while ago:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vrty05oMTOg

a mashup with Megadeth’s holy wars… the punishment due (1990)

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/37675/

Doug Helvering reviews: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q20ZE_8iy7E

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The Church

Steve Kilbey and Karin Jansson (The Church) about writing the song ‘Under the Milky Way" in 1988.

Steve: “I smoked a joint and started playing the piano and she came in the room and we just made it up.”

The title is from an Amsterdam music and cultural venue, Melkweg (Dutch for “Milky Way”), which Steve used to frequent.

“I just stumbled upon it and for some reason it has struck this wonderful sense of universality with people that most of my songs don’t.”

[..]

Karin about songwriting with Steve: “it’s a very spontaneous thing. It’s not as if someone has put us together to write a hit song. It’s more like sometimes when we write together, a song comes knocking on the door”.

[..]

Steve: [..] You can hear it wasn’t written for profit. It’s an accidental song I accidentally wrote and accidentally became a single and accidentally became a hit.

In 2001, the song was featured in the soundtrack for the movie Donnie Darko – wikipedia

Steve talking about it:

https://youtu.be/bZIYEVxKH4s?t=40

It was written by singer Steve Kilbey & his girlfriend at the time, Karin Jansson (of the Swedish all-girl punk band Pink Champagne) at his mother’s house in Australia. Kilbey imagined himself in a late night bar at closing time in the opening line “Sometimes when this place gets kind of empty…” . The rest of the song flowed out in a very stream of conscious fashion with the two of them passing ideas back & forth between one another that same night. – explanation by EternalTearsOfSorrow

https://songmeanings.com/profiles/view/17307240/

The Power of Love

to all the people i have known and loved

holly johnson miming the eternal child: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUxoXTD-QhQ

remixed: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWR_FNj3-hA https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8nITsyXd6s

info and lyrics https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Power_of_Love_(Frankie_Goes_to_Hollywood_song) https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/3530822107858544870/

other love songs I like https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLg_O3072fDaM0LC9luWcaARd54jxm7l8V

The Gathering

One of my favorite songs on the album named after one of man’s greatest relics, the Mandylion. At the end of the song there’s a quote by J.R.R. Tolkien.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fVPv6MRYV9k

“There is no such thing as a natural death: nothing that happens to a man is ever natural, since his presence calls the world into question. All men must die: but for every man his death is an accident and, even if he knows it and consents to it, an unjustifiable violation.” ’ Well, you may agree with the words or not, but those are the key spring of The Lord Of The Rings. – J. R. R. Tolkien quoting Simone de Beauvoir, “A Very Easy Death” in the BBC’s ‘In Their Own Words’ ‘68 interview and mixed by The Gathering in ‘95.

my dear, don’t leave me now

close at the edge of my end

all this time you have been my friend

don’t go, stay for a while

my dear, you’re losing me now

this will be my last hour

hear my voice, see my face

see how sick i am

how i long for your embrace